Our brokenness is precisely what God needs. She doesn’t require us or even want us to go clean up and then report for duty. He just doesn’t have that sort of time; and neither do we. She takes us as we are.

Remember that the Master Artist took chaos and Created all that is. Brokenness is really nothing more than disorder which is nothing more than chaos.

Come as you are; expect the radically unexpected.

Betrayed!

“One of you will betray me.” Here we are, enjoying a simple supper, reclining, laughing, having a good time as we eat a meal and drink the wine. We’re spending quality time with our friend and teacher; he has performed miraculous deeds and has spoken of a radical way of living in relationship with each other and the world. It’s time for a break, we’ve all earned it. I’m starting to believe some of the things he has been telling us; now he has to ruin the party. Talk about a buzz kill. I hope he’s not talking about me.

 It’s very quiet in this room, lanterns flickering in the dusk. though sounds in the streets outside filter in, low murmurs, occasionally a child shrieks, a dog barks, a rooster crows and inside we’re all murmuring; is it me Lord, each asking one after the other. Searching his face for some sign of reassurance that it isn’t us; yet I have seen Jesus cut Peter to the quick on more than one occasion and myself and the others as well. “Get behind me, Satan!” He seems to have this uncanny ability to know the secrets of our hearts, the weakness of our convictions. Now here we are in the belly of beast. It’s a little bit nerve wracking. That thing over at the temple, I was sure they were going to arrest us all and I felt like running away. Every time he confronts the priests I cringe, though I agree with everything he says. Is it necessary to speak truth to power? Can’t we just blog this Jesus? Send out an email blast or do a Top Two Reasons for the Golden Rule on Letterman or something? Make a few jokes and pretend we aren’t serious about that whole servant thing? Does he know I’m having second thoughts about the best approach? I still have a lot of questions, so can’t we wait until after Passover? Can’t we wait for a more convenient time? If we keep this up, someone is going to get killed.

He’s asking for a lot, my life basically, and I’m not sure I’m cut out for this type of work. It would require a saint and I’m anything but. Fishing is always good and I think my dad needs help. Maybe mosey on back to Galilee and take up the family business again. Fishers of men; what kind of branding is that? It barely makes sense. Has he figured out I’m ready to split; I’d be lying if I said it hadn’t occurred to me more than once. Still, I want to believe his lessons, even if they seem too good to be true. “One of you will betray me.” I hope it’s not me. Is it me? I hope it’s not me.

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